Music for my Mother

July 17, 2012 — 31 Comments

My mom would’ve been 57 years old this day, July 17th, 2012, and I dedicate this EP to her.

You see, when she was here, all five feet and one inch of her, all red hair and freckles of her, all the slight lisp and spunk of her, I didn’t know to treasure her. I didn’t know so much. Come to think of it, I still don’t. Like a lot – don’t.

I didn’t know how [expletive deleted] young 36 years of age was; which was my mom’s age when she died.

I didn’t know how hard it was to be a mom.

I didn’t know that one could love their children so much it causes a physical ache in one’s body and yet, at the same time, how hard it would be to still have the energy to remember one’s own dreams and aspirations at the end of the day.

I didn’t know how hard it would be to find the balance between the ministry of motherhood and the ministry of… being true to oneself.

Does that make sense?

My dear Betsy Garmon has told me over and over again, (and here I’m paraphrasing badly) “You need to find your art/music in the cracks and the crevices and stop bitching and moaning about how you don’t have the time to create like you used to. You should model the creative life for your children now; let them watch you work through it.”

Or something like that.

I’m still trying to work all of this out. I’m still trying to work out how to be a mommy to four boys, and still pursue what’s in my heart to do. I used to think, for the longest time, that I couldn’t do both.

I don’t think that anymore.

So here’s to the cracks and the crevices. Here’s to not just finding the time to create, but making the time, wrestling the time down, wooing the time. Here’s to learning how to balance life well, and not so well, and everything in between, and having grace for oneself in the midst of it all.

After two months of being in the studio, on and off, I am proud to present to you the first of what, I hope, will be a total of 3 EPs. May I introduce The Cracks and the Crevices.

All songs are completely free, for now. There are little stories behind each of these songs. I think, perhaps, I will write about each song specifically over the next month or so. I hope that you enjoy them! If you do, I hope that you share them! At the very least, you should download them while they are free.

DOWNLOAD FOR FREE: The Cracks & the Crevices EP (ZIP file)

PURCHASE ON ITUNES: The Cracks & the Crevices EP (iPhone/iPod enthusiasts)

To sum up?

I made some music I would want to listen to and I hope that you want to listen to it, too.

31 responses to Music for my Mother

  1. That quote from your friend Betsy is exceptional. It’s a mantra. I applaude your dedication to creativity and music. Looking forward to diving into the tunes.

  2. Thank you for the music, Meghan.

  3. Wow – you two are an inspiration. I’m a photographer, music nut, and a stay-at-home-dad, so I’m a bit of a mash-up; you both speak to me in your quest for creative originality, getting the family balance right and fighting for what is right. Amazing music Meg. When (like now) the kids are pulling at my leg and I feel the loss of my work time, this will help me keep the faith. Don’t stop…

  4. Loved hearing the storey behind this. I still struggle to find balance myself, feels like there isn’t enough hours in a day. Loved your music for years now, keep on truckin & much love

  5. Congrats, there’s not much that compares to the feeling of getting a project in front of people, where it belongs. I look forward to listening to this while we work on completing our own dreams.

  6. Love this album, it’s so delicate yet strong and powerful. Absolutely superb.

  7. Meghan–it’s beautiful!! Thank you for speaking to my heart … again.

  8. You are a wise wise woman indeed. And so is that Betsy. And I’d give you a hug if I could. I love this EP and I look forward to two more. xo

  9. LOVE the quote!!! I feel it, I know it, I struggle with it every day. Thanks for putting it into words. I have learned to love the cracks and the crevices.

  10. I’m looking forward to two more, too! I’d also love to hear the little stories behind the songs when/if you feel like sharing. Just love the wordplay of china in a bullshop ;)

  11. What a beautiful dedication to your mother. You are a talented musician and an inspiration to all mothers (including myself) who struggle with finding time to express their creativity – thank you for sharing your music, words and Betsy’s quote!

  12. Your entire life is amazing gift and tribute to your mother! Thank you greatly for sharing this part with us and in a sense mothering more than just your own family. I am grateful and humbled to know you.

  13. Love the title. It is so true. How is it you and Zack are so eloquently able to hit the nails on the head so often? Loved meeting Zack last summer, I’m sure you’re a delight as well. Enjoyed the songs too. I too hope to raise a child (yes, only one) who is also a pleasure to someday and share a beer with.

    And have you read Wild by Cheryl Strayed? Might hit close to home…

  14. Just beautifull! Thank you for sharing. I look forward to hearing more.

  15. Being a parent is tough and never stops no matter what age your children. Parenthood is forever. Enjoy the ride and take care of everyone in your family including yourself. My wife and I are 70, and we went through all the trials and tribulations of parenthood and maintain our own personal lives. I would not do anything different. Being a parent is God’s work and makes life meaningful.

  16. Seemingly endless talent and a beautiful spirit … absolutely enchanting!

  17. Being a wife and mother of two, I find it a struggle to do for me most of the time. Feelings of guilt and selfishness still linger, but I came to realize that taking time to pursue the things that I need to do are better than putting them in a box on a shelf to be watched over by dust bunnies. Continue to make this beautiful music. I truly enjoy it:)

  18. Beautiful, beautiful music that I really needed to hear right now. Thank you for sharing your gift. And for the offer of free music but I bought it on itunes for myself and my best friend, because I felt I wanted to give something back. Hope that makes sense.

  19. Hey, Thank you Meghan. You go, girl!

  20. Beth Tarbutton July 18, 2012 at 11:02 am

    Lovely, wise, moving, inspirational. Thank you for sharing.

  21. Love it! I follow your husband’s blog and just love what he does and how he’s happy to call a spade a spade. He posted in his blog about your music and said to check it out. Glad i did and glad you have not lost your love for it and have now found the time to get back at it again. Keep it up!

  22. Meghan…you spoke right into my heart with this one…..I am so glad you are back at it..the world needs to hear your music…and your message…it is strong and powerful….and must come out of you…
    I love you sweet girl,
    Mona

  23. Thank you so much for sharing your writing and your music. Absolutely beautiful. I can tell that you have a beautiful spirit along with your amazing talent.
    Very powerful message, much needed here.
    I also wish I had known and understood how hard it was to be a mom while my mom was still here.

    Thank you Meghan!

  24. You have no idea how grateful I am for this post. On a night when I was wrestling with chasing dreams and chasing 3 little ones under the age of 6, I happened to find this space. These words. This beauty. And some seriously gorgeous music to boot. Thank you. And please, oh please, don’t give up. By the way, it was wonderful to meet you at Zack’s critique night back in winter and I swear I removed the music from my website. Pinky swear.

  25. Hi Meghan! I’m good friends with your neice Madison Merritt. She told me that I would probably like your music and I certaintly do! It’s very well done. You have a wonderful gift my dear! I also wanted to let you know about my services as a photographer, I’ve left my website above for you to veiw(flickr.com/wisdomandstature). I have done photoshoots with many people, including Leah Banks(who just released an EP as well, called Sincerely), and I’ll be doing another session with her sometime in the fall. Her website is: http://www.leahbanks.com. If you would like to contact me about my work as a photographer here is my email address: wisdomandstature.photo@gmail.com. I’m located in Flowery Branch, Ga, which is near Gwinnet and Lawrenceville.

    Thank you again for your music! It was a blessing.

    RachelGrace White
    Wisdom&Stature Photography

    • Rachel,

      Thanks very much for your kind words! I’m pleased that you like what I do! The Merritts are a lovely family aren’t they? I love that Madison refers to me as her Aunt! So awesome. While it was very kind of you to offer your services of photography (I really do appreciate it) my husband already is a photographer, it’s kinda what he does for a living, so I’m pretty covered in that department. ;-) You can check out his work here: Zack Arias I’ll go take a peek at your work, however! Take care!

      • Thank you so much for taking time to respond Meghan! You’re a sweetheart and I know that the Lord is going to bless you in all of your musical endeavors:) I actually was browsing more of your website after I sent you the previous message and read that your husband was a photographer, which is very cool! The Merritts most certaintly are a wonderful family and I’m thankful that the Lord brought Madison into my life. She’s a very special friend of mine, and has blessed me in so many ways. I will check your husband’s page out as well.

        Thank you again for your time Meghan!

        RachelGrace

  26. I’m an aspiring photographer so have followed your husband’s work a bit. I’m overjoyed that he posted your album on his site.

    Awesome work that really spoke to me so my thanks for sharing it with us all. I’ve purchased a copy of the album on iTunes which I hope helps you find some more time in between the cracks and crevices to produce more.

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