Stardust…

November 29, 2013 — 8 Comments

Before I begin I just want to thank everyone who read and commented on my “coming out” post. Your comments were kind and a lot nicer than I thought they were going to be. A lot of atheists report horrible backlash when they finally decide to share with people about their atheism. Atheists are viewed by a lot of people as evil and lacking in morals. One study found that people distrust atheists more than rapists.  My decision to tell everyone about my atheism was, in some ways, directly tied to this stigma; I want to give a voice and face to what an atheist looks like. There are so many people out there who are atheists or agnostic (I’m going to write a post about that later) and most of us don’t even know it.

 

Now, on to the actual point of this blog post.

 

I wrote the song Stardust back in July (of 2013) sitting in a south facing 20th floor apartment in Manhattan. It was sweltering hot in the city; the heat indexes were some of the highest in recorded history. The apartment was only slightly cooler as the A/C unit struggled to keep up with the temperatures. The view, however, was incredible as the picture window took up almost the whole south wall of the apartment; the Freedom Tower the primary focus. And how could it not be? The southern Manhattan skyline once more dominated by a towering height of steel and glass. There was a guitar in the apartment and as I sat on the bed strumming the strings, I was ruminating on the damage that “faith” (a word Peter Boghossian defines as “Pretending to know things you don’t know.”) has had on humanity. All the things that people have done because “God” told them to, or because they had “faith” that it was the right thing to do. To be sure, it wasn’t Christianity that brought down the Twin Towers, no. It was a group of people who ardently believed that Allah wanted it; people who believed just as firmly as the Christians; just as firmly as the Hindus; just as firmly as the Jews; just as firmly as the Mormons, etc. that what they believe is the ONLY right way to believe.

I thought to myself, How profoundly sad that most of us live waiting for an afterlife. That people think, “One day I will be in heaven and won’t have to deal with any of this anymore.”

I want to live for now. I want to die trying to make the most of NOW.

And so the words poured out:

 

Waste away in buildings built

To ease our sorrow, ease the guilt

Supplicate to the up above

Hate to say no one’s listening, love.

 

Time was lost to a fairy tale

Forbidden fruit that led to nails

And born to see but rendered blind

By mankind to save mankind

 

Oh we’re stardust

And we must

Make the most of this

While we’re breathing

No more living

For after dying

No, I’ll die trying

To make the most of now

Darlin’

 

Ate the body, drank the blood like

Every good boy and girl should

Babies raised on bread and wine

Let your little light shine

Oh let it burn

Let it shine

Oh watch them burn

 

(CH)

 

The amazing Deke Spears, producer and musician and friend extraordinaire.  Shot with a Yashica Mat-124.

The amazing Deke Spears, producer and musician and friend extraordinaire. Shot with a Yashica Mat-124.

Below is a rough recording of the song that I started with Deke Spears. The song is still in its infancy. Deke and I recorded in the performance hall at KSU – he played the acoustic guitar and I played the gorgeous Steinway Grand piano and sang. We messed around with backing harmonies and then, later, Deke threw some drums and bass on the track to see how it felt. I’m not sold on it but it’s all I have to share with you right now.

The gorgeous Steinway Grand I was honoured to play.

The gorgeous Steinway Grand I was honoured to play. A blurry shot taken with my Yashica Mat-124.

Please know that it’s not mixed or mastered and most likely will end up sounding different. However, I’ve found that nothing I do will ever meet the standards I have in my head, nothing will ever be perfect enough, and so I need to get over my stupid self and share whatever it is that I have at that time. Capiscé? Hate it? Love it? What do you think? Be honest. Honesty is a very very good thing.

Many thanks, everyone.

 

( By the way, I know that some of you are going to hate this; it’s going to make you very uncomfortable. I’m sorry for that and yet, I really hope that this gives you reason to consider why you believe what you believe. Stretch your brain a bit, it won’t kill you. I promise. ;-) )

8 responses to Stardust…

  1. I like it as is!! You’ve got such a pretty voice and the piano is a nice accompaniment. Clever lyrics, too, as usual. Don’t change it too much, Meg.

  2. Loved the sentiment, the lyrics, and your wonderful voice. Thank you for sharing this.

  3. closed my eyes hearing your song – began dreaming, dusty me, flying to the stars… I love it!!

  4. Beautiful…well done.

    I can’t imagine you improving on this with more instrumentation :)

    That said; I have to comment on one thing you said:

    Quote:
    I thought to myself, How profoundly sad that most of us live waiting for an afterlife. That people think, “One day I will be in heaven and won’t have to deal with any of this anymore.”

    End quote

    I think that knowing that life actually has an intrinsic purpose isn’t sad at all.

    Thinking that we are all just biological accidents, with no enduring meaning and that in 100 years nobody will care if we ever existed is much sadder by comparison….no?

    In fact…if everything is just a biological accident and we are the result of random, purposeless mutations, then ascribing meaning to anything is a vain act.

  5. I think this song is beautiful! I love the alto tone of your voice! As a Christian, part of me wanted to be insulted by:
    “How profoundly sad that most of us live waiting for an afterlife. That people think, “One day I will be in heaven and won’t have to deal with any of this anymore.”

    I want to live for now. I want to die trying to make the most of NOW.”

    But I only found myself reminded that I, too, am called to live for NOW because if I don’t, I may miss the opportunities Christ has for me. I may miss the small, quiet ways He reveals Himself or opportunities to love others. For me, Heaven is finally being with Christ physically and a reminder of how insignificant the problems I encounter are, in the grand scheme of things. As a therapist, I often find myself reminding my clients to live in the now instead of being trapped in the past. So, thank you for writing this beautiful song and posting powerful words. I look forward to future pieces!

  6. Love the lyrics. Love the melody. That snare bugs me during the verses, but works well on the chorus and the ending creating great dynamics. All in all I would have to say this may be my fave from you to date. Can’t wait to hear it polished up a bit and finished.

  7. I like that you used soundcloud.

    I really like it as it stands… I can’t even imagine it better but I’m sure you’ll find a way…

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